Dragon Con Countdown – 8 days

The Gin Fairy cosplay is coming together.   I spent a few hours today on the overdress.  I’m not much of a seamstress and I seldom make garments from scratch, but I’m pleased with how this is turning out.  I’m hoping to finish the overdress tomorrow and then decide if I have time for anything else on this one.  I love the sleeves! I might make several of this design in different fabrics just for these dramatic flouncy sleeves.







Two blog posts in two days!  I’m a superhero!


The last few months I have had a case of the slow, or maybe the cuddles.   It is kind of like depression, but without as much sadness.  I haven’t felt motivated to write, garden, or go to social events.  Mostly I want to sleep, watch TV, and knit.


On the upside, I’ve finished several knitting projects.  On the downside, I am behind on editing my novel, the garden is a mess, and I haven’t been blogging.  That is going to change.  I have a goal to write 100,000 words before my birthday in July and to blog at least once a week.   That will be easier now that my blog looks so amazing thanks to the awesome Issa Waters of http://lovelivegrow.com/.  She is a great blogger who writes about homesteading, parenting, body/fat acceptance and social issues.

This might sound odd, but I think taking Zoloft has been partly to blame.  With my anxiety being lower, everything seems less important.  I don’t feel as stressed about anything, so I don’t have as much reason to push myself.  I got on the Zoloft in order to be able to do more social events and maybe get back into the world of business, but now that I am so much more Zen, I don’t actually care about making people like me or being “seen,” and I am not as worried about money.  There is a balance that must be found between loving the life I have and also wanting to make my life better.  I am a little too content recently.

The last few weeks my motivation has increased enough to write down some long and short term goals, get the house back in working order, and start this year’s gardening.   I also started work on a few writing projects.

In case you are wondering what I have been up to these last six months:

I went to Dragon Con for the first time in about eight years. It was a big deal for me to go to something with so many people and not freak out.  I don’t know exactly how many people there were, but it might have been the biggest crowd I have ever been in.  There were a few scary moments, like being stuck in human traffic jams on the sky bridge.  Overall I had fun and even bought tickets for next year.   Some of the highlights for me were playing dress up, looking at all the great costumes,  hearing several great bands, and seeing some of my favorite writers such as Jim Butcher and Cheri Priest live.  I like to imagine that someday I will be up in front of a crowd talking about my writing.gothNurse








One of my best friends moved in with us, which has been awesome.  We have been having lots of fun mini-adventures when she can tempt me away from the TV.  I used to think that having roommates would be horrible, but now after having several I find that I like it.  When she moves out, I might have to find another one.L and Ninja

She exercises everyday which has gotten me back into the habit.  I love exercise; feeling my heart pumping and my muscles burning.  I like how good exercise makes me feel, but I hate exercise videos because they talk about weight, fat, pounds, etc. all the time. The thin ladies in the videos often chastise the viewer for being lazy or tell us not to have jiggly arms.   Shaun T’s videos have the least fat bashing, so I do those most.  I am seriously thinking about putting together a body positive exercise video for people like me who want to exercise because they like it and don’t want to be shamed in the process.  I find that exercise makes me a little more aware of my body and not always in a good, emotionally healthy way. I don’t need people in the TV adding to my issues.

I took a trip to Baltimore in November to eat crab cakes and be emo.  I did some sightseeing and went to several museums.  I recommend the Ripley’s museum if you ever find yourself there, we danced, played, created, climbed through a tooth pick city, watched teenagers run head first in to mirrors and saw some weird shit.  It was interactive and informative on things I find interesting, like carnies and giant mummified whale penises. Speaking of mummies, the science museum had an awesome mummy exhibit, you should go see that too.



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Attempted NaNoWriMo and failed.  I thought I would do great this time, since I finished last year and had fun doing it. I started out strong, going to the social events, outlining a bit of a plot, even wrote a few pages.  Then I hit a wall because I wanted to be culturally sensitive and I was working in a genre that I normally don’t write in.  I will do better next year.

I read the Mistborn books by Brandon Sanderson, which was pretty good.  Currently I’m reading “Ship of Theseus,” which is written in a strange and interesting way. It is two stories: one being told in the normal way, and the other being told in the margins, by two people passing the book back and forth. I finished the “novel” part of it, which was good, but not great, and seemed to be trying way too hard to be weird and mysterious.


Other than that, I went to a few plays and movies, spent a little time with friends, watched a lot of Adventure Time, created art, learned a few pieces on the piano and annoyed my cats


Rainbow Skirt

Look! A post that is not about writing. I do sometimes get up to other things.

I like to sew but I have not made much so far so I am still mostly keeping to simple things. Especially things that don’t require me to cut out a pattern. This skirt was technically easy to make, but it did take a long time. The general idea is just to cut out lots of squares, sew them together into strips, gather the strips and sew those together to make the skirt. The time consuming part is that this has almost 200 squares and the bottom layer was 25 feet long.

I got the idea from this site: http://www.craftster.org/forum/index.php?topic=226380.0

Collecting the fabric was fun, I bought about half of it and the other half was gifted to me by my friend Danielle. I said I needed fabric and she drove over to my house and gave me a huge amount of beautiful fabric. I have enought left to make a few more things. I think this the the number of squares I used and they were all about 5 x 5 inches. Ninja is helping me put them in order. 

Pink/Red: 13 squares
Yellow/Orange: 21 squares
Green: 32 squares
Blue: 48 squares
Purple: 62 squares

Once cut, I would lay them out to make a nice pattern and then sew them together. This took a very long time, a few weeks since I was only working on this a little each day. But then finally I had all the strips done. I took this picture of them on the stairs so you could get an idea of how big this skirt really is.

The hardest part for me was the gathering.  I did it all by hand and I have not done much gathering before now, so it was a challenge.  I gathered each layer and then sewed it to the one above it.  The gathering and sewing only took a few days, be they frustrating days.After is was all sew together I finished it with bais tape and elastic at the top, and just bais tape at the bottom.

This skirt was a lot of fun to make, and also a lot of fun to wear.  I have only worn it a few times, each time getting tons of compliments, everyone loves it.  I also find the weight and puffyiness of it very pleasing.  I think it would be even nicer worn with a crinoline if I could get one of the right length –  all of mine are either to short or two long.  I wore it for the first time to Euphoria (a regional burn) which is where the next picture is from.   I might take a new picture of it today and switch them out, because I am not super happy with this picture.  I actually don’t know who the guy is,  I was just walking along and saw him wearing the same shirt as me (a dreaming nyan cat) so we took a picture together.